Let Go and Let God

Why does it take me so long to learn that if I just let go and trust that He is in control, everything works out so perfectly?  Well, I finally surrendered and accepted defeat and acknowledged the fact that I have to let go of all my controlling, must-have-it-my-way, attitude and just let God do His thing.  In my quiet time yesterday morning, that's what I did.  And you know what? It was so freeing to have that burden off of me. This adoption process is His mission, after all, and I'm supposed to just follow.  So I took my place in His shadow and started the day.  And you know what else?  Within a few hours I got an email saying that we were officially Logged In with the Chinese Children's Welfare and Advocacy Association and our Log In Date (LID) - the thing that I was waiting for sooo impatiently - was actually 9/21/2011!  They were just late in notifying us.  Our God had not turned His head, He had not forgotten about us.  He was still making miracles happen, I just was too ornery and too stubborn to see them.  Now I see.  Now I know - again.  The next step is a Letter of Approval from the Chinese government.  That process has been taking 60 days lately.  Sigh.  But I know that His timing is perfect and I will wait on Him this time.  I'm still hoping and praying that we'll be able to bring her home by the end of this year but will leave that up to Him.  Emma turns 2 next month.  Oh how we wish we could be there or she could be here.  We'll just have to remember that He is both here and there and thankfully, that soothes our souls.